FictFri Participants - 09/23/16 - Send/Receive/Give

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Theme: Send/Receive/Give


Participants
001 @BB_Swann Bonnie
002 @JeffreyCook74 Jeffrey
003 @NerdCactus Cactus
004 @BasilScordilis Basil
005 @stoneofmadness Nick
006 @mumbletoes Mark
007 @scyian Emma
008 @FenlandGirll L K
009 @rebeccahchase Rebecca
010 @aechambersnove1 Amelia
011 @mugs2thewind CML
012 @NatasyaParker Natasya
013 @cheriesummers18 Cherie
014 @CLOgilvie Leslie
015 @MelanieAThurlow Melanie
016 @LibbyDoyle9 Libby
017 @AllBrevityWit angela
018 @SusanFobes Susan
019 @WeeRedBird Bird
020 @SpartacusNow Elliot
021 @tincans561 Lise
022 @kellyjmassey Kelly
023 @assaphmehr Assaph
024 @AliyaDalRae Aliya
025 @muse_write Jamie
026 @EleanorKonik Eleanor
027 @GrProject43X Van
028 @lesswithoutyou Matt
029 @ajuptonwrites A.J.
030 @ajswitzy Amanda
031 @MarinaBlack99 Marina
032 @christopheresl2 Christopher
033 @jenniferdshelby Jennifer
034 @Gradyperlson Matt
035 @21stCscribe MarcNash
036 @mooney365 Diana
037 @PamelaHester Pamela
038 @iamfunkhauser A.B.
039 @AuthorJLBrown J.L.
040 @lizziehermanson Lizzie
041 @Kristina_Mahr Kristina
042 @AGibsonAuthor Andrew
043 @WendyGoldberry Wendy
044 @catsteinbooks Catherine
045 @TheRiseofNazil Aaron-Michael
046 @brandy_appleby Brandy
047 @JDHaveman Joshua
048 @Keilantra Tami
049 @don_lorah seafordmath
050 @JLivingston26 Jayson
051 @VoxVorago Vox
052 @anneeterpstra Anne
053 @pipposey Philip
054 @TheTCreamer Thomas
055 @MamaMuChick Dana
056 @Tsuyoi_Inoue Briana
057 @RyanToxopeus Ryan
058 @thebrucewisener Bruce
059 @casey_donart Casey
060 @raballard Ramon
061 @jfxmcl jfx
062 @chipmunkofpower Rebecca
063 @reagancolbert97 Reagan
064 @BunnyDarkness R.B.
065 @writewatson Marc
066 @justanerdygirl1 Angel
067 @JPhilipHorne J.
068 @jordanmarigreen Jordan
069 @Lilsweetnspice Who
070 @CayceOsborne Cayce
071 @MaryCorrales_A1 Mary
072 @LunsfordMichael Michael
073 @essdotcurr Steve
074 @KimberlyCummons Kimberly
075 @RobHanlon1958 R.R.H.
076 @KamaPost Kama
077 @eagrot liz
078 @pootie5 Missy
079 @Elise_Thornton Elise
080 @LeeRetan Leoma
081 @WhenGraceDances Grace
082 @LexiconBlu Lexi
083 @cskendrovich Cathy
084 @Kaylathewriter9 Kayla
085 @anon9mouse1 Lily
086 @EdaJVor Eda
087 @JessieIngold Jessica
088 @OtterGoddessKel Kelly
089 @OctaviaAtlas Octavia
090 @eacomiskey EA
091 @Author_C_Snow Craig
092 @ParawlPerwyl Parry
093 @Triple_Ess_ Marie
094 @grbankler Gloria
095 @ejfrostuk E J
096 @BCrainbooks B.
097 @anomisting Jaq
098 @_JM_Sullivan J.M.
099 @CassieHolmes808 Cassie
100 @authormariaberg Maria
101 @Stepha_OBrien Stephanie
102 @Sus_Coleman Susannah
103 @MarsaiMarcela Marcela
104 @norahsgraves Norah
105 @_NicolaNoble_ Nicola
106 @artman413 Artman
107 @Finn_Chow Finn
108 @DavidDracyn David
109 @mackson_paige Mackson
110 @KyleRbrtShultz Dragonthief

FictFri Participants - 09/16/16 - Illusion/Real

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Illusion/Real

001 @JeffreyCook74 Jeffrey

002 @aechambersnove1 Amelia

003 @Kirstie_Earlene Kirstie

004 @RobHanlon1958 Rob

005 @NastasyaParker Nastasya

006 @FenlandGirll L K

007 @_SarahBakewell Sarah

008 @WendyGoldberry Wendy

009 @ellekarmawrites Elle

010 @CLOgilvie Leslie

011 @WeeRedBird Bird

012 @ScribalReverie Brittany

013 @JDHaveman Joshua

014 @don_lorah seafordmath

015 @Gradyperlson Matt

016 @assaphmehr Assaph
017 @lizziehermanson Lizzie
018 @ajuptonwrites A.J.
019 @zelliej1 Rosella
020 @thebrucewisener Bruce
021 @BB_Swann Bonnie
022 @AuthorJLBrown J.L.
023 @Phoebe_LShade Phoebe
024 @rebeccahchase Rebecca
025 @GrProject43X Van
026 @anneeterpstra Anne
027 @kellyjmassey Kelly
028 @CTapper2u Cheryl
029 @AliyaDalRae Aliya
030 @christopheresl2 Christopher
031 @hearningcurve Holly
032 @catsteinbooks Catherine
033 @ajswitzy Amanda
034 @GearTurns Phoebe
035 @ElizaRedwood Eliza
036 @tinedanxer tine
037 @tincans461 Lise
038 @MelanieAThurlow Melanie
039 @mooney365 Diana
040 @JDodgeCummings Judy
041 @jfxmcl jfx
042 @oldpbfan21 M.E.
043 @casey_donart Casey
044 @Stepha_OBrien Stephanie
045 @jenniferdshelby Jennifer
046 @reagancolbert97 Reagan
047 @Jake_Writes Jake
048 @TheTCreamer Thomas
049 @pnswrites nikki
050 @byreneelozano Renee
051 @SpartacusNow Elliot
052 @mpmarinotales Michael
053 @chipmunkofpower Rebecca
054 @snowy_626 Sara
055 @raballard Ramon
056 @LeeRetan Leoma
057 @pjvernon_author Philip
058 @awritingwall Allison
059 @MaryCorrales_A1 Mary
060 @cskendrovich Cathy
061 @Kaylathewriter9 Kayla
062 @introspective13 Chris
063 @Dream_Craziness Missy
064 @LunsfordMichael Michael
065 @EdaJVor Eda
066 @Meg_Frye Meg
067 @ZachAndChuck Zach and Chuck
068 @LibbyDoyle Libby
069 @CayceOsborne Cayce
070 @Lilsweetnspice Who
071 @natmumpower Nat
072 @RyanToxopeus Ryan
073 @InviteToQuiet Dallas
074 @SusanFobes Susan
075 @amberkbryant Amber
076 @kvpeckwriter Karen
077 @lmpiercebooks L.M.
078 @eagrot liz
079 @MarinaBlack99 Marina
080 @cs_sanders08 C.S.
081 @ParawlPerwyl Parry
082 @pootie5 Missy
083 @NerdCactus Cactus
084 @artman413 Artman
085 @pdwrites Prudence
086 @jbrysonwrites JA
087 @LairdLady Jennifer
088 @RebekahNBryan Rebekah
089 @OctaviaAtlas Octavia
090 @KyleRbrtShultz Dragonthief
091 @essdotcurr Steve
092 @Sus_Coleman Susannah
093 @AndyWritings Andy
094 @DavidDracyn David
095 @lifebreakingin Leanne
096 @cheriesummers18 Cherie
097 @tabularasawritr Joel

Special thanks to:
@writevent Free Writing Events for sharing the FictFri word.

@simplylyddie Lydia for sharing FictFri hashtag!

FictFri Participants - 09/09/16 - (Murder)

UPDATE: After reviewing Nov. 16-17 of 2016, I have found out that Sept 09, 2016 had broken the previous week's record (of 123). CONGRATS and keep up the writing!


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Theme : (Murder) {Posted Here}


FictFri Participants 09/09/16
BELATED Thanks to:
001 @JeffreyCook74 Jeffrey
002 @annelisemonte Ann
003 @torresdelise Delise
004 @Kaylathewriter9 Kayla
005 @ellekarmawrites Elle
006 @DeniseWalker_ Denise
007 @RobHanlon1958 Rob
008 @ShiaLaBot Shia
009 @FenlandGirll L K
010 @DRWillisBooks David
011 @mumbletoes Mark
012 @aechambersnove1 Amelia
013 @scyian Emma
014 @don_lorah seafordmath
015 @mooney365 Diana
016 @cheriesummers18 Cherie
017 @LibbyDoyle9 Libby
018 @CLOgilvie Leslie
019 @lmlangleyauthor L.M.
020 @lesswithoutyou Matt
021 @SpartacusNow Elliot
022 @WeeRedBird Bird
023 @AuthorJLBrown J.L.
024 @thebrucewisener Bruce
025 @pootie5 Missy
026 @alannarusnak Alanna
027 @AliyaDalRae Aliya
028 @christopheresl2 Christopher
029 @tincans561 Lise
030 @JordanStephanie Jordan
031 @PamelaHester Pamela
032 @BB_Swann Bonnie
033 @jfxmcl jfx
034 @kellyjmassey Kelly
035 @JDodgeCummings Judy
036 @essdotcurr Steve
037 @TheTCreamer Thomas
038 @kerrymcdan Kerry
039 @J_amesp J.J.
040 @CTapper2u Cheryl
041 @JLivingston26 Jayson
042 @GrProject43X Van
043 @hearningcurve Holly
044 @Megan_Manzano Megan
045 @muse_write Jamie
046 @JDHaveman Joshua
047 @PKC1963 Paul
048 @AndyWritings Andy
049 @pjvernon_author Philip
050 @donnavstone D.V.
051 @cleestories C Lee
052 @RiseoftheBattle Rise
053 @TheRiseofNazil Aaron-Michael
054 @Keilantra Tami
055 @TopdjianC Carolyne
056 @snowy_626 Sara
057 @MelanieAThurlow Melanie
058 @mpmarinotales Michael
059 @CnstantGardener Constant
060 @reagancolbert97 Reagan
061 @MarinaBlack99 Marina
062 @VoxVorago Vox
063 @chipmunkofpower Rebecca
064 @MatthewZellmer Matthew
065 @FenleyGrant Fenley
066 @JesikahSundin Jesikah
067 @Jake_Writes Jake
068 @ajswitzy Amanda
069 @writewatson Marc
070 @catsteinbooks Catherine
071 @LairdLady Jennifer
072 @Lilsweetnspice Who
073 @stoneofmadness Nick
074 @casey_donart Casey
075 @BookishPlinko A.M.
076 @NataBrothers Natalia
077 @Rockwood_Sarah Sarah
078 @MaryCorrales_A1 Mary
079 @1sarahashwood Sarah
080 @kissapuppy D.M.
081 @SusanFobes Susan
082 @NastasyaParker Nastasya
083 @Actonjustin Justin
084 @introspective13 Chris
085 @raballard Ramon
086 @cskendrovich Cathy
087 @ElizaRedwood Eliza
088 @tinedanxer tine
089 @eagrot Liz
090 @RyanToxopeus Ryan
091 @KristenKooistra Kristen
092 @Gradyperlson Matt
093 @janicecroom1 Janice
094 @CayceOsborne Cayce
095 @Stepha_OBrien Stephanie
096 @jayelliotflynn Jay
097 @MatthewSpeak Matthew
098 @Germsbaybee grandmother
099 @lmpiercebooks L.M.
100 @ParawlPerwyl Parry
101 @KValleyWrites Kay
102 @KamaPost Kama
103 @norahsgraves Norah
104 @mmadiganauthor Margaret
105 @ZachAndChuck Zach and Chuck
106 @ceeleeolson Christina
107 @SJpublishing1 DrewS
108 @Suze_Robinson Susan
109 @pipposey Philip
110 @RealJimSnell Jim
111 @elisalromagnoli Elisa
112 @Kristina_Mahr Kristina
113 @NerdCactus Cactus
114 @WendyGoldberry Wendy
115 @DriveInHorror Horrorshow
116 @CassieHolmes808 Cassie
117 @Elise_Thornton Elise
118 @iamfunkhauser A.B.
119 @teakerr Trace
120 @tanyachrs Tanya
121 @justine_manzano Justine
122 @Sus_Coleman Susannah
123 @MamaMuChick Dana
124 @CovOfShadows Kade
125 @InviteToQuiet Dallas
126 @deborahlsinger Deborah
127 @artman413 Artman
128 @AllisonDamMillr Allison
129 @oldpbfan21 M.E.
130 @BunnyDarkness R.B.
131 @BrandieNix Brandie
132 @Finn_Chow Finn
133 @wynnagade Jessica
134 @Lee_Tozer_ Lee
135 @mackson_paige Mackson
136 @petr3pan Petre
137 @KyleRbrtShultz Dragonthief
138 @pdwrites Prudence
139 @Therealcskizzle Chey
140 @ChristaCollett Christa
141 @lifebreakingin Leanne
142 @kvpeckwriter Karen



Additional thanks to:
@writevent Free Writing Events for sharing FictFri!
@jaclyndavis01 Jaclyn for helping others learn about FictFri!
@AntrimCycle Antrim for sharing.

Five Writers On Murder

Five writer friends get together weekly to chat, bounce ideas off each other, commiserate about being misunderstood, and in general to get away from the works in progress that eat at each of their bits of time. As they wait for their meal to be served, they each have a glass of their drink of choice: the first has a Frappuccino, the second has a Chai tea, the third has a glass of water, the fourth has a cola, and the fifth has a glass of white wine. Each of these writers have dabbled in the various genres and types of writing, though they each have their own preference: the first writer prefers mystery, the second prefers romance, the third prefers comedy, the fourth prefers science fiction, and the fifth prefers horror.

The first writer says, cupping her Frappuccino as if it is the only thing keeping her from being buried, "I have a conundrum I would like to put forth to the group."

"Do tell," says the second writer before sipping from his Chai tea.

The other two agree to listen to the issue so the first writer continues, "In my latest story,  I have a character, not the main one, that will be found dead soon. He is a wealthy sixty-three year old widower with one married son, no grandchildren yet. This character has a butler as well as a cook. For the life of me, I don't know who would killed him or for what reason. It is vital that he dies, so the main character has to deal with the aftermath that is caused by his death. Any ideas?"

The third writer laughs, "Everyone knows that the butler always did it. Maybe he did it because he wasn't getting a raise in pay?"

"Maybe it was the son who wanted to get money so he could run away with another woman," says the second writer.

"Or maybe it was the cook because she was tired of cooking for him so she wanted to cook him instead, to rid herself of her employer," the fifth writer says.

The first writer shakes her head at the three suggestions, "No, but thanks. That just doesn't sit right."

The fourth writer smiles and says, "Or you could just kill him off, as a writer's prerogative, for the heck of it. One of those "unexplained" cases kind of thing."

The third writer starts giggling, "Kill your darlings."

The fifth writer smiles, "Now that's what I'm talking about."

The five writers laugh and accept their meal that arrives at the table. A writer's prerogative: no character is safe. Anything could happen to them at any time. Just hope that you don't end up as the character of the writer whom decides to kill for "no reason".

FictFri 09/02/016 Participants

FictFri 09/02/16 made a NEW record, breaking 100 participants and actually getting up to 123! You guys rock so much! I am grateful for all of you and your awesomeness. Keep being great, see ya another FictFri, and keep WRITING! <3



FictFri 09/02/16

Theme:
Remnant/Whole/Ashes


Participants:
01 @StevenRogersVox Steven
02 @RobHanlon1958 Rob
03 @JeffreyCook74 Jeffrey
04 @hearningcurve Holly

05 @torresdelise Delise
06 @howardprobinson Howard
07 @mackson_paige Mackson
08 @DeniseWalker_ Denise

09 @FenlandGirll L K
10 @aechambersnove1 Amelia
11 @SJpublishing1 DrewS
12 @annelisemonte Ann

13 @Suze_Robinson Susan
14 @jenniferdshelby Jennifer
15 @don_lorah seafordmath
16 @campbellJA7 Julie

17 @lesswithoutyou Matt
18 @LCDunnett Leslie
19 @WeeRedBird Bird
20 @AliyaDalRae Aliya

21 @kellyjmassey Kelly
22 @Gradyperlson Matt
23 @assaphmehr Assaph
24 @MamaMuChick Dana

25 @Kaylathewriter9 Kayla
26 @2b1luv1 Katherine
27 @GearTurns Phoebe
28 @donnadechen Donna

29 @BloodKingChrons H.S.
30 @HRuthMiller Hannah
31 @christopheresl2 Christopher
32 @Bunnie93S Bonnie

33 @PKC1963 Paul
34 @donnavstone D.V.
35 @lizziehermanson Lizzie
36 @GentaSebastian Genta

37 @JPhilipHome J,
38 @PamelaHester Pamela
39 @pjvernon_author Philip
40 @Kristina_Mahr Kristina

41 @SherylFawcett Sheryl
42 @Faith_Blum Faith
43 @grbankler Gloria
44 @JLivingston26 Jayson

45 @anneeterpstra Anne
46 @LibbyDoyle9 Libby
47 @MelanieAThurlow Melanie
48 @GrProject43X Van

49 @SusanFobes Susan
50 @ABusico Alisyn
51 @cheriesummers18 Cherie
52 @JesikahSundin Jesikah

53 @ajuptonwrites A.J.
54 @Jake_Writes Jake
55 @chipmunkofpower Rebecca
56 @CayceOsborne Cayce

57 @astoryofmemory Raven
58 @casey_donart Casey
59 @writewatson Marc
60 @jaclyndavis01 Jaclyn

61 @tincans561 Lise
62 @MarinaBlack99 Marina
63 @byreneelozano Renee
64 @OSBAuthor Orville

65 @MaryCorrales_A1 Mary
66 @BookishPlinko A.M.
67 @Elise_Thornton Elise
68 @AllBrevityWit Angela

69 @adambrickley Adam
70 @vg_acorngirl Victoria
71 @Phoebe_LShade Phoebe
72 @catsteinbooks Catherine

73 @NataBrothers Natalia
74 @Dream_Craziness Missy
75 @HeidiPeltier1 Heidi
76 @teakerr Trace

77 @snowy_626 Sara
78 @EdaJVor Eda
79 @MirandaWriteNow Miranda
80 @sickwithstress Weirdo

81 @Stepha_OBrien Stephanie
82 @ParawlPerwyl Parry
83 @davidamillican3 David
84 @Lilsweetnspice Who

85 @FenleyGrant Fenley
86 @DriveInHorror Drive-In Horrorshow
87 @cave_yates Cave
88 @LeeRetan Leoma

89 @cs_sanders08 C.S.
90 @EssaHansen Essa
91 @AuthorJLBrown J.L.
92 @mmadiganauthor Margaret

93 @mooney365 Diana
94 @pdwrites Prudence
95 @reagancolbert97 Reagan
96 @norahsgraves Norah

97 @DDSyrdal Shade
98 @kissapuppy D.M.
99 @ElizabethJMcCay EJ
100 @ElizaRedwood Eliza

101 @justine_manzano Justine
102 @TheRiseofNazil Aaron-Michael
103 @jfxmcl jfx
104 @LisaEBetz Lisa

105 @mpmarinotales Michael
106 @BunnyDarkness R.B.
107 @ejfrostuk E J
108 @ElisabethHobbes Elisabeth

109 @SpartacusNow Elliot
110 @iamfunkhauser A.B.
111 @Blackheat22 Blackheat
112 @MonTannaSpring Mon

113 @Meg_Frye Meg
114 @cleestories C Lee
115 @john_cordial John
116 @CassieHolmes808 Cassie

117 @KyleRbrtShultz Kyle
118 @_ja_stewart Jade
119 @jwlynn8 jw
120 @CAnneCalhoun Christine

121 @essdotcurr Steve
122 @kvpeckwriter Karen
123 @pipposey qilihq








Special thanks to:
@writevent Writing Events Guru for spreading the FictFri word! THANK YOU!
@chipmunkofpower Rebecca for the terrible FictFri joke. <3 >.>

Movie Review - "Blood Glacier" ("The Station") 10/27/13 (Austria)

This is a movie review for "Blood Glacier", released September 27, 2013 in Austria in German. I watched this 8/31/16 on Netflix in German with English subtitles.




Trailer

Cast

Gerhard Liebmann ("Breathing" (2011) Walter Fakler, "The Dark Valley" (2014) Vater Lukas)     -   Janek
Edita Malovcic (4 Minutes (2004) Traude - jung, "The Bone Man" (2009) Anna)  -        Tanja

[Et. Al.]







Plot

Up in the mountains, a laboratory base {three scientists, a technician, and the tech's dog} studies a glacier. One of the stations stops transmitting data so the technician and one of the scientists go to check it out. They find that the glacier is, for reasons unknown at first, red. The scientist takes a sample and brings it back, but not before the scientist, tech, and tech's dog gets hurt. When they research into the stuff, they find that it could be a "gene laboratory" in a cell, pretty much. And when the animals of the area consume the stuff that is making the glacier red, they start incubating a mutant in their stomachs [even if the animal/human is not female]. The fun part about this is that the mutants are a combination of whatever the creature consumed as well as the creature itself. So, ibex (mountain goat) with fly, a fox-bear-beetle thing, a hawk-beetle thing, and many other creatures.    Oh, and let's have a person from the government (Minister Bodicek), her body guard, a guide from the local area, a person from the government's science labs [who happens to be the technician's ex significant other], and media come join the situation.  Can they survive the creatures and get out alive?







Rating Criteria
0/5 – No value whatsoever. Absolute waste of time.
1/5 – Barely worth any time.
2/5 – Pathetic but has a bit of something to hold the attention a little.
3/5 – Somewhat kept the attention but could definitely have used more.
4/5 – Good, but not awe-strikingly amazing. Could have maybe used a bit more to the movie.
5/5 – Go see it! Wonderful movie all around – characters, music, theme, story line, etc.



1.5/5 - This was, for all sense and purposes, pathetic. The ideas of these mutant creatures was pretty nifty but it was poorly executed in my opinion. The horror of the creatures was never really expounded during the movie aside the fact that one guy was skewered by a hawk-beetle thing {and we never hear about him again after he hits the ground}, one scientist was running away from an ibex-fly thing and we do see the creature (briefly) smashing through a window but not much more of it, one gal gets skewered in the leg by the hawk-beetle thing, and a few other brief creature appearances. Seriously, for all the horror of the creatures, there should have been more details and more stand-offs. Aside trying to stay safe away from the creatures, there wasn't much to the movie.  Sure, *SPOILERS*, the technician and his ex seem to get back together but no kissing?

At one point, they saw multiple mutant mosquitoes bursting out of a media guy's neck but none of the other people in the group get bitten? Or do they get bitten and none admit it? But what about the creatures in the area that they didn't deal with? Are they going to do a "burn the area" containment thing or....?

And, *SPOILERS*, why the EFF would the tech's ex take the dog's mutant (which happens to be part dog, because it came from the dog, and part human because the dog licked the tech's blood up) with her away from the site?! I mean, get a brain, woman! Just because you aborted your child two years ago does NOT mean that you should take a mutant dog-human away from a mutant cesspool!! The technician was right to lunge to kill it because it is a mutant and killed the dog! Don't effin' take the stupid creature away from the station. The mutants in this case should all die, just for containment if anything! *frustrated with movie*

The ONLY saving point with this movie was the idea of how these creatures came around. I was very intrigued by it but there were so many holes of logic that I just looked at Netflix at the end of the movie and said out loud "Are you kidding?".

Recommendation: If you want to see some strange science crap, watch this but WARNING that it really is not a good movie aside the science and the creatures. Aside seeing the science stuff, this movie was not worth the time.


If you want a good creature horror flick, this is NOT the movie to watch.






~yume

My Autobiography - Trials of Being a Woman

This is part of my autobiography. Just some information that I would like to put up here for people to know about me.

WARNING: The contents in this blog post are not suited to all people. If you get ill thinking/hearing about feminine issues (menstrual), be warned that this might make you ill. If thinking/hearing about genitalia makes you ill, be warned.

This is graphic and true material. This is all from my life.

My name is Rebekah Lynn P. My writer name "nom de plume" is Gracie Mae DeLunac. I have also gone by the name of Margem online, hence my DeviantArt being margem.deviantart.com and my 'artist' Facebook being Margem Okalwa.


I was born January 2, 1987 on an Army base in Kansas, USA. My family then moved up to Minnesota, USA when I was only a month old. I was born with a Hemangioma. Of course, the doctors said that since I was the first born of my parents that it was merely a "war wound" [injury from the delivery] and that it would go away by the time I was 5. Trust me, it still hasn't gone away {29 years later}. My doctors ended up telling my parents when I was about 11 that it was a Hemangioma and, long story short for this part of the autobiography, that we had to have surgery on it or face the consequences.




But this part of the autobiography is not regarding my life with a Hemangioma. This is regarding my life as a woman with difficulties.





It is known that humans face puberty when they are pre-adolescent. That is usually around ten-fourteen years old. As a female, my puberty hit when I was around ten. My first menses was when I was in fifth grade. It started while I was at school, so I had the "lovely" experience of having to go to the nurses to get feminine napkins. My mother then gave me the speech of why the menstrual system was a good thing. After the first menses in fifth grade, it stopped. The next month's period never came. My doctor said that it was probably just a "false start" to the periods and that it would resume by itself.



Eighth grade rolls around: I did grow as puberty's growth hormones said, but my menses still did not start.

February 2000: I get my yearly illness (cold/flu) but the symptoms are worse than normal. I feel nausea and dizzy, having to literally cling to the hall's wall to walk from my bedroom to the bathroom. I didn't go to school while this happened because my mother said that if I could not walk from my bedroom to the bathroom, 10 feet in the hall, then I wouldn't be able to maneuver my way through the Middle School's expansive maze of hallways with the multiple kids walking to and fro. I agree and so I ended up staying home. My parents had me see multiple doctors and the main thing they said was "rest". One doctor ended up telling my parents that I had a blocked hymen. What that means is that the 'exit' for the menses was unable to let it exit and the menses backed up. We don't know how long it was backed up but maybe up to three years' worth of periods were stopped inside. My doctors set me up for surgery to set it back into motion the way it should.

Easter, Sunday April 23, 2000: After getting the diagnostics regarding why I was getting sick, I slowly got better. I still was unable to go back to school permanently but I was surviving. Easter came and I woke up, knowing something was different. Going into the bathroom, I find that my period has started. Yay, good news! I put on a feminine napkin, prepare for church, and sit on the couch. Five minutes before we are to leave, my stomach is doing flips and I tell my parents that something isn't right. I go back to the bathroom and find out that I have overflowed my pad, after 20 minutes sitting on the couch.

I go to change my pad and my mother finds out how much I am losing. Since I didn't have any of my surgeries yet, she says that maybe I should just stay home to let it work itself out (since it started itself). I say okay and they go to church. I end up going from the toilet to the shower and back multiple times while they are at church, expelling the menstrual blood and cleaning myself off. My parents come to pick me up to bring me to my grandparents' house for Easter lunch and the Easter hunt. Ten minutes after we left the house, we got to my grandparents' house. I was worried about my pad so I went to the bathroom immediately and found it to be overflowed again.

I managed to eat lunch with my family, immediately returning to the restroom when I was done eating and sat on the toilet. My cousin asked if I could join the Easter egg hunt but I shook my head crying because I was feeling so drained from having this constant heavy flow. My grandmother said to my mother that she should take me to the hospital. "She could be bleeding to death, for all we know. You should take her in to get it checked." My mom, pale from the idea that her oldest child could be hemorrhaging. She got me into the car and we drove down to the hospital. The Emergency Room doctor then said that I had developed a pin-hole opening in my hymen and it was relieving the pressure from the blocked menses. "Keep the surgery and go from there. She doesn't seem to be bleeding to death."

We kept the surgery and relieved the amount of menstrual blood that was backed up in my body. I was recovering from that when one day, going to the bathroom, I found myself doubling over in pain. My mother was concerned about me so she took me into the doctor again. This time the doctor said that they would have to do a more invasive surgery to figure out what was happening.

Turns out that the backed up menses (up to three years'/36 months' worth) had not just "sat" in my system but had messed up my body. My gynecologist said that they had to get another doctor in to the surgery to help her figure out what was wrong. My left ovary was on the right, and my right ovary was on the left. They saw my Fallopian tubes and said "that doesn't look right". Removing one, they sliced it open to find that it was filled with puss. Worried for my safety, they removed the other one and also found it to be filled with puss. After they got the whole abdominal area fixed, they took out my appendix. Afterwards they would tell me that if any one was worried, since feminine reproductive issues are taboo, say that I had appendicitis [because that is a lot more "normal" to talk about and a lot more understandable].

The second surgery was like a Cesarean Section surgery in the fact that they went through the abdominal muscles to get to the area. I was hospitalized for over a week trying to get my strength back and learning how to walk again, literally. When I did go home, I ended up spending the rest of my school year at home with tutors and my parents picking up/dropping off my homework for me. I was able to attend the Eighth Grade Year-End "Graduation" Dance, but I stayed off to the side of the cafeteria because I was still sore/exhausted. I remember the dance vaguely but I do recall that they did the Macarena. ^.^


High School came that fall and my doctors kept an eye on me. To regulate my menses, they put me on the patch {which I hated because it made my skin itch!}. It did regulate it but it annoyed me; skin irritations and the like.


After high school, I took medication to regulate the menses and it worked. However, when I was in college, the frequency was more sporatic. I would have one period once every three months, but my doctor was not worried because I was occasionally having a period and was not sexually active (therefore not pregnant). It was during the time frame of 2006-2009 that I was "unofficially" diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. How to deal with it? Eat healthy and lose weight. {I have been working on that since 2006 and haven't really lost much, though I try...}


Having been off health insurance since 2009, I haven't visited the doctors much.


July 2011: I was at work in an office as a temp agent (data entry / accounting) when I realized that my menses were heavier than normal. I was going to the bathroom every 60-90 minutes to deal with the period and changing pads. I became ill with the flow and ended up leaving work early so I could drive myself to the hospital. The doctors in the Emergency Room said that there wasn't an issue and that I needed to go home to rest. "Take it easy." My mother and grandmother ended up coming to the hospital to get me home, since I didn't feel well enough to drive myself home. The doctors at the ER told me to go visit my regular doctor to deal with it, so I did. She merely told me to "take it easy, eat healthy, and lose weight". Also, she said "just take your medicine and come back in a few months", like she wasn't going to look into why I was having such heavy periods. Again, I tried and tried but nothing has changed and no one could give me a definite answer to why the irregularity was occurring.


Summer 2012: I had started my job as a bus driver that spring and I was struggling to keep my stress level low. I ended up back at the Emergency Room for another issue with my menses. The doctor there ended up literally telling me "Its nothing. Take it easy. I understand that it is a social issue but nothing more."  Excuse me, social issue? No, this is a personal life-altering issue. I have to worry about if I am going to bleed through my pad, through my pants, and onto the bus driver's seat. I might not have 'hazardous' agents in my blood like AIDS but it is still a worry to think that I may end up bleeding on the seat, especially with most of my coworkers being males.


Summer 2014: Again, I became sick from having such a heavy period that I went to a doctor in the Mayo Clinic system. She was a sweetheart and understood that we need to deal with this issue. She labeled it for me, finally after 14 years of bulls**t. The word is Hypermenorrhea: "Hypermenorrhea, also known as menorrhagia, is a disruption in the normal menstrual flow of girls and women." The 'hyper' part of the word means super. In other words, the menorrhagia is amplified. My doctor actually sent me for tests to figure it out, but still not resolved. I kept my stress level down and the heaviness of the periods let up a bit, so I tried the whole "eat healthy, lose weight" thing again.


Summer 2016: When my husband visited our doctor, I asked her about my issue (changing the overnight pad every 60-120 minutes; sometimes even as often as every 15 minutes). She said that I need to have an Endometrial Ablation or a hysterectomy done. She even said to my husband that I need to get on health insurance (even if for a few months) to get it done because overflowing an overnight pad {which most women use for OVERNIGHT of 8-10 hours} in 15-90 minutes is ridiculous.




Where I Am Now:
- My emotional setting is off because of this, even worse when it is super heavy ["dark red blood clots coming out"].
- I cannot consistently work what a normal 29 year old can work because if I move the wrong way, my period overflows. I have overflowed my pad when I have been at work and trust me, it is not fun to try to clean up a line of blood that has snaked its way down the leg towards the shoe because of the overflow. It is also very difficult to explain to my employers why I need to be near a restroom hourly or that I cannot lift things because it might cause an overflow of my pad. [8/20/2016 - I lifted a box that was maybe 40 pounds and I overflowed my pad because of the strain. Luckily I had extras because of the intensity of the period lately.]
- There are many times {over the last 3 years} that I have had to crawl from my bedroom to the bathroom because if I stand up, I will overflow the pad. Standing up in the bathroom causes an overflow but at least I am near the toilet to deal with the mess.
- I cannot go swimming without having to use a tampon and watch the clock so to change hourly (to avoid an overflow).
- I have discussed this with my family and, though I am the oldest grandchild on my mother's side and the oldest child of my parents, I will not be having biological children of my own. My system cannot contain and maintain and support a young life within so even if I wanted to go with an In-Vitro Fertilization treatment/implant, I could not. My mother has had issues understanding this but she has come to realize that not having children of my own is better than risking my life to try to bring some into this world. As of now, we are also not looking to adopt or foster any in the future [personal preference and due to emotional/financial issues].





I am moving back into Minnesota to get health care through the state, as by myself through North Dakota would cost me a good $200 a month (plus co payments, a $100-$500 yearly deductible and up to 20% of the costs after the deductible to a maximum amount). In other words, it would cost me roughly $300/month through those policies in North Dakota to get the same amount of coverage versus $100/month (roughly) in Minnesota.  Hopefully, if I am lucky, I can get my surgery [either the endometrial ablation or the hysterectomy] done this winter 2016-2017.




As I said at the beginning, this is something I want to put out there but not for pity. This has been my life and I struggle with it daily. Though many say that this kind of topic is taboo, I want to put it out there as a "Hey! This is real! This should NOT be taboo! Just because a woman can't reproduce doesn't mean that she should be embarrassed from the situation and shy away from knowing who she is, or thinking that she is less of a human because she cannot have children. A woman is not merely the womb.".
I can stand on my own without having to think about having reproduction issues, since I have acknowledged what my situation is. I put it out there for people to realize that stuff like this happens. Do not judge someone based on their negative experiences but take it as a learning experience.





I will close this part of the autobiography with a thanks to all that read this.
~Rebekah / Gracie







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P.S. Yes, I know that this puts my real given name to my pen name but I think that it should be said. If you wish to call me by my real name on Twitter, sure, but I prefer to use my pen name over my real name {especially on Twitter or my pen name's pages}. ;-)